If you consume conservative news, I am sure you heard how the Democrats are allowing late abortions up to and right after birth. This is a lie that has been told over and over until their viewers believe and repeat fox’s talking points.

It makes me sad that we are so divided resulting in a large portion literally live in a fantasy land. It actually terrifies me. We are doomed

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I make it a point to consume as much news coming from the left, right, and center. I feel it’s the only way to clearly see the dangers coming from the right. I remember when Kelly Ann Conway uttered the words “alternative facts.” In the real world there are facts. These facts are truths, now if someone says “alternative facts” it is a way to lie to dumb people.

This brings me to Sean Hannity one of the most prolific propagandist on the right. To see proof of this listen to the texts between Hannity and Kevin Mccarthy. Hannity reaches a lot of people who believes what he is flogging is truth. A member of the press got caught colluding with a government official to establish talking points. It blows my mind how the right has programmed their viewers to only believe them because everyone else is lying to you. Don’t believe what your seeing with your own eyes and hearing with your own ears is the talking point. Just like a cult they cut off you off from family, friends, and ultimately the truth.

The thing that infuriates me when Hannity caters to the lowest common denominator, by inserting scary buzzwords into topics such as “Hunter Bidens Laptop From Hell.” Do you ever ask yourself why does Hannity do this? You add this with consistently repeating the same thing over and over again and you have yourself some good old-fashioned Nazi party propaganda.

The only reason the republican party is still relevant is they dine on people who will constantly vote against their own interests. I think the new misinformation crackdown is a good thing. I am all for freedom of speech until that speech becomes dangerous the whole can’t yell fire in a theater. There should be advisories before during and after a fox and other right wing news outlets stating what you are hearing is not news it is opinion and contains lies. Other countries do this and some have even banned fox news because it is destructive to divide a people and create two different realities in which to live.

I have been scouring right wing media to see if they are reporting on the disastrous month the GOP is having. A real news agency reports on both sides of the aisle, while propaganda only reports what benefits them.

Here are a few big stories you haven’t heard if you only listen to fox.

Jared Kushner receiving $2 billion dollars from the Saudis.

The right cannot stop talking about the “Biden Crime Family” and Hunter Biden. Let me be clear if any laws were broken and the Bidens have committed a crime they should be charged. They have been talking about “the Hunter Bidens Laptop from Hell” the fact that Hunter was on the board of Birismu (may have spelled wrong) Fox would bust a nut if Hunter received $2 billion dollars from the Saudis. They don’t because it doesn’t fit their narrative. Any news agency that is this boldly manipulating the masses should be fixed. The absence of this creates two separate realities. As Kelly Ann said “alternative facts” we now have half the country believing these alternate facts which let’s be honest is a sly way to say “I am lying to you”.

I also am waiting for them to report on:

Marjorie Taylor Green committing perjury

Matt Gates being investigated for sexual trafficking of a minor.

The involvement of Hannity before during and after Jan 6th. Setting up strategies to help the right.

Trump being held in contempt in the Case against him in New York.

They will rip Biden apart for going back to Delaware but nothing about Trump spending more time at his clubs charging the tax payers making him richer.

The hypocrisy is driving me crazy. How can so many people be this easily misled. Its bullshit that I need to accept will never change.

Cancel culture has taken over in the media. The right is complaining because people on the right are getting sued, losing jobs, and just overall finally being held accountable for their lies.

First I cant take anyone seriously when they are complaining they are being censored while simultaneously speaking to millions of people.

I find it amusing that a party that is so gun-ho on capitalism is complaining about this. People are not being canceled they are losing their jobs or platform because the market dictates it. A company has every right to cut ties with those that will harm their brand. That’s our businesses making these decisions not our government.

I havent written on here in years. Its not because I had nothing to say, its my ability to say it. After 2 rounds of ECT my brain hasn’t been the same. I apologize if this is a bit disorganized.

Over the last four years I have been closely following the madness that has become our country. I have consumed all forms of media from both sides to try and figure out why we no longer exist within a shared reality.

Trump, Fox, and right wing media has managed to convinced its viewers that they are the only ones they can trust, and everyone else lies. This has divided the country and families. I no longer have a relationship with my dad because he thinks I am brainwashed by Communist China because I support things like a fifteen dollar minimum wage, and Universal Healthcare.

Its a classic cult technique to isolate its members until they have been locked in the same eco chamber. They constantly push fear mongering because those who are afraid are easier to manipulate. Add in their stupid phrases and names such as “Russian Collusion Delusion” “Sleepy Joe” and the many others you hear from people like Sean Hannity and Rush Limbaugh catering to the lowest common denominator. They are constantly repeating the same phrases over and over until people believe them as facts.

I could go on but I am not sure if what I have already written makes any sense.

Blow My Candle Out

Posted: November 20, 2017 in Uncategorized

For people like me surviving to suffer through another day is a constant battle. We can all tolerate the occasional bad hand, but when you have to constantly navigate this fucked up life working with a shitty hand one tends to draw a line in the sand that once crossed then we know it’s time to fold. I am fucking sick of shitty hands and should have folded years ago. 

So bid me adieu it’s been a shitty ride no one should endure and plans are in place to get off this shitty ride. 

I just came across this quote and it gave me a mild thinkgasim. I consider myself a theologian and I am shocked I have never explored this concept as it pertains to the divine. I asked myself if I were God would I want to take credit for this world and the perpetuating evil conducted by the “men made in his likeness” I would say fuck that blame it on the intern and live to corrupt another day. 

Sitting in my office, jamming to some tunes suddenly from a far I hear feet shuffling on the freshly waxed floor. A smile comes across my face, because I know soon I will see my best friend Dale Brown. 
Through the Taoist point of view Dale had reached the rare state of enlightenment, where he was able to see the world through the eyes of a child. I am aware that this state was partially contributed to his illness, but none of that mattered. The brief moments where we were able to interact was always the highlight of my day. It is amazing how we seem to appreciate things so much more when they are gone.

It was the day before Thanksgiving 2009; I spent most of the day by Dale’s side. His biggest fear was being alone I held his hand, and tried to tell him that he is not alone, and everything is going to be ok. I feared that he was so far in the process that he was not able to hear me.

 Dale had just recently been taken off hospice, so he did not have someone by his side, on this day he seemed more alert then the days before. He had spent most his days just laying in bed, on this day Dale was moved out in the common areas in what I call the “death chair”. I call it this, because the residents who sit in this chair pass soon after.

When the day came to an end, I saw him sitting there, I said my goodbye’s knowing in my head that this would be the last time I would see him. There was so much I wanted to say to him, for some reason it did not come out.

I received the text on Thanksgiving eve that he had passed, looking back there are so many things I wished I would have said. I wish I would have given him a hug, and told him exactly how much he meant to me. I wish I told him he is loved.

I still hear shuffles coming from the hallway; I look up with a smile waiting to see his smiling face. I never see it, it has almost been two months and I still have not talked about it, accepted it, or discussed my feelings.

I did not intend on forming any relationships with the residents I work with.  Dale came into my life at a point where I needed a friend. The conversations we had were delusional, yet very personal. I could be myself, I did not need to hide my disease or who I really was, and neither did he. His smile was infectious and always brightened up my day.

He was here my first day at work, and in my mind I thought he would be here for many years to come. I hate that I never took the time to just sit back, and be mindful of the moment. I am angry and sad that I will never get that chance again. I am regretful I did not let him know the impact he had on my life. I wanted him to know that even in death he will always live on in my heart. Even as I write this my eyes well up in tears, yet I refuse to feel through it. I refuse to accept and let go.

Since his passing my days seem empty, and my heart breaks every time I hear the shuffling, only to look up and see that it isn’t him.

Repost. I still miss Dale, and know he had very few people in his life that cherished and loved him for who he was. I know Dale would pass no judgments on my own mental health. Miss and love you.

There is some debate on which speech was his undoing. I wanted to add this one, personally I believe it is more powerfull than the one I posted earlier. I know I talked that one up quite a bit. 

I normally never do 2 posts in a day but feel this one is relevant enough to add. I also want to say I am proud of myself for being able to write daily again. I appreciate your readership and support.

In my opinion John F Kennedy is the greatest President to ever lead a country, and it is a tragedy he was killed. This is an eye opening speech when you can see how prophetic people can be.