Video  —  Posted: August 26, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist

Audio  —  Posted: August 26, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist, Fuck Life
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Video  —  Posted: August 26, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist

Video  —  Posted: August 26, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist

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(If you’re sleeping are you dreaming
If you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can’t believe you actually picked me.)

(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it’s 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you were doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l… and… well… it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and…
Take care honey
I know you’re under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me, just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for three whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered, “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you’re sleeping are you dreaming,
If you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can’t believe you actually picked me

[Girl:] Hey, Justin! [12x]


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Video  —  Posted: August 25, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist
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I may be doing many posts between now and tomorrow afternoon. I have to get the most important ones recorded. 

I am not sure if I should Post the lyrics as I have been, or if the correct versions being posted is enough. Every song on my funeral playlist has significant meaning and some are meant for specific individuals. So I am going to try just the video

Video  —  Posted: August 25, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist
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watch this funeral playlist video

If I am unable to get all the correct songs and versions their is a playlist on my phone. 

Holding my breath not taking a step

The good church has closed it’s doors on me

God don’t like my dirty feet
Burning the lawn everyone’s gone
Ain’t no barbeque going on today
I drink my dinner in the shade

Days and days go by
Children laughing still I don’t smile at all
Mary’s calling to me can’t you see what I see
She would never let me down

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

Been living a lie my kisses are dry
I got nowhere else left to run
My love is blind deaf and dumb
Heaven can’t wait to lock up the gate
Tell me that I never could belong
I had my chance but got it wrong

Days and days go by
Children laughing still I don’t smile at all
Mary’s calling to me can’t you see what I see
She would never let me down

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

Mother Mary stay with me don’t let me die
You’re the only good part left of my trash
God knows I can’t change me
I’ve tried and tried I never meant to make you cry

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

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Video  —  Posted: August 24, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist
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Someone commented on a post I did a long time ago about the meaning of this song. It would be a crime if I didn’t include it.

Video  —  Posted: August 24, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist
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https://youtu.be/Lmm_c5V6Olg

A slow strangle with your feet on the floor

I’ve got 14 angels and we’re sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I’m in pain but I won’t let you Band-Aid my wound
I am mad at a stage where I can’t even handle my own (can’t even handle my)

Give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
Until the end
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind… To combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find
But I have and I won’t let them go like I do with my friends (my friends)

Still hearing voices… From front… From behind
They’re the reasons I choose… When to live… How to die
When to cast… When to reel
When to buy… When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taught you
Being inappropriate will

Give me a quiet mind and I
I still love you
You give me a quiet mind and I
I love you
You give me a quiet (quiet) mind and I
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I (you give me)
And I love you
Until the end

Video  —  Posted: August 22, 2016 in Finalized Funeral Playlist
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