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Graceful Dancing

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The choice of letting go and saying goodbye is never easy, yet the decision to hold on is even harder. I have let go of hopes, dreams, relationships, redemption and written my goodbyes many times in the past, but every morning I regret my choices and my decisions to hold on… This was the beginning of the post I was working on last Saturday, what was to follow was going to be my final words then swallow every bit of medication I had and finally be at peace. Instead I ended up in the psych ward at Abbot where I stayed until yesterday against my doctors and others advice. I didn’t see the point in staying, all they did was drug me to the point where all I could do was sleep. I was at a crossroads where I knew whether I chose to stay or go I was leaving in worse shape when wen I went in. When I walked out of the hospital and reality came crashing down on me I knew right then and there that I fucked up choosing to go to begin with, yet again regretting my decision to hold on. So I am back where I started but with a bit more inner strength then I had before because I received a mental vacation, but seriously how long will that last? The answer will come in the next week or so as I sit back and see how everything plays out between my job, dream, finances, and relationships. I feel I am at the point where depending on how these things play out will determine my future.

My life is riddled with mistakes, and regrets each one adding to the greater mound of shit called life. At this moment three key things come to mind, keep in mind this is not in chronological order of importance.

  1. Failing at fixing all the problems at the nursing home I work at to improve the quality of life of the residents I have grown to care for so deeply.
  2. Giving up on my dreams of becoming a writer or an artist.
  3. Not finding redemption for the countless number of lives I have destroyed in my 35 years on this earth.
  4. Not following through with shit on November 26th.

I think what it comes down to is acceptance. I need to accept that I won’t ever be more than I am right now. I have to finally accept I won’t ever be able to help the residents where I work. I don’t know what’s worse giving up on my dreams or trying to redeem myself by helping people just like me who can’t help themselves. I have done shitty things; I have poisoned and hurt everyone and everything I have ever touched. Many of my poems touch on this concept of being a “virus.”

For over six years I have worked so hard to make up for all the pain and suffering I have caused by reducing the pain and suffering the residents at the nursing home I work for by the hands and decisions of the very same people who are supposed to care for and safe guard these residents. There are many good hearted people whom I work with who carry this burden of failure, if any of them are reading this they know the deep sorrow and feeling of helplessness of not being able to give these guys the proper quality of life they deserve.

I have been in business with and covered up things for “business associates” who wouldn’t hesitate putting a bullet in your head, but being involved with and covering up for an employer who is a non-profit and allows vulnerable adults and employees to be harassed mistreated and discriminated against is far worse in my eyes. There are many people at the nursing home I work at who see the same things I see but do not act; as Haile Selassie so eloquently put it

Throughout history, it has been the inaction of those who could have acted; the indifference of those who should have known better; the silence of the voice of justice when it mattered most; that has made it possible for evil to triumph.”

All of the people involved in my past life and unfortunately as of late too much of my current life chose “the life” and in the end we all end up in one of two places, we deserve whatever end to our means no matter how horrific or painful. Our residents on the other hand do not deserve the means that transpire until their end comes.

This is my apology to the residents that have come and gone who failed to receive the proper quality of life they deserved. I am sorry that I can no longer continue to fight for the change needed, it is destroying me. My old associates showed more mercy delivering people to their end, than the people I work for now. The people employed by this company who care are used and pushed until they break while the predators are allowed to continue to prey.

Non-profits are not supposed to be run like a criminal organization where fear and intimidation rule. Non-profits are supposed to be built upon something called “Duty of care.” If any one of the “criminals” who work at this nursing home is reading this let me define what duty of care means.

“Duty of care is the moral and legal obligation to attend to the safety and wellbeing of those they serve, those who work for them and others who come into contact with their operations.”

Now to wrap things up there may be some people who do not understand what the title of this entry has to do with the content. Below is a Youtube link of Justin Furstenfeld performing the song “Graceful Dancing.” After hearing his introduction to this powerful song, and seeing the familiar emotions during his performance I decided to check myself into the hospital which drastically changed the content of this post. For that I thank the artist and the person who posted this video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCFpgfvPGZo&list=PLIWCEQoVmfdHIakN42xTrXYjPnE6I3EHB&index=55

 

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Two days ago I posted a blog entry on this site  from my website  www.thephilosophyofme.com. The entry was a philosophical entry inspired from one of my many favorite quotes from Edward Abbey.

“A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government.”

I wrote about how important it was for Americans to open their eyes and see how our government continually lets us down. Our Constitution opens up with “WE the People.” This country has completely lost this meaning. WE continue to elect officials who are “in it for themselves,” because of this we get what we vote for. I know there are honest politicians who generally want to move this country forward. These honest officials are over matched by their peers, and their opportunity to make real progress is lost in the Capital Hill status quo.

In my post the other day I received some comments from my favorite and most active reader; The Rambling Taoist (he can be read at ramblingtaoist.blogspot.com I highly recommend his blog.) He informed me, that with all the bullshit in politics it is a futile dream to expect real change. He spent 15 years of his life, trying to make such change and came up empty.

My response was quoting him the famous Taoist saying “A thousand mile journey begins with a single step.” He gave me such advice on a different issue a few weeks back. I feel the American people have been so indoctrinated into being consumer slaves, they become complacent with life and the status quo. If WE were able to form as a people; over time WE would take our country back.

I would give up my longshot dream of becoming a full-time writer to know one day this dream would become a reality. I would love to be alive to see this day, but if it took 75 years I would be at peace with the outcome. To know I was a part of making OUR country great again would be the greatest honor.

I know there are people in this country who feel the same way, but they suffer from the concept of “what can I as an individual do?” I am confident if enough people would listen and see the truth they would stand up and demand they be served by their elected officials.

If WE look through history all great empires crumble. If WE truly see where are country has gone, WE can see… history will repeat itself. Our country began deteriorating from within long ago, and because of lack of knowledge the people of this country have allowed it to happen. It is because of greed and the pursuit of the all mighty dollar; our country has fallen apart while other countries have grown and prospered. WE are hated around the globe, and WE have no one to blame but ourselves.

The Peoples Republic should be self funded by the people. We should have no need to accept money from those who are determined to destroy this once great nation. WE need to start at the state level and begin electing those who are for the people. WE need to work ourselves up from the lowest positions until we have moved and taken over the highest positions. This can be accomplished if we band together and form as one. I can guarantee once the two evils see real change is coming they will have no choice but to straighten their crooked paths less they be forced out of power.

WE can no longer elect charlatans who run their campaigns on lies and empty promises. How much longer can WE as a nation continue down this same old path? How many times are we going to fall for these hollow words. The majority of America (the dying middle class) have given up on the prospect of change; so much so they have refused to even vote. The right of voting is crucial to our government, yet the ones who vote are the corrupted church, the wealthy, and the uneducated who continue to believe lies.

It is coming together,  standing in unity, and striving for change. Our forefathers had the strength to stand up to their oppressors, and built our country around ensuring this type of oppression never happens again. If it does they gave us the right to stand against it. We can no longer stand by and let our given freedoms be taken from us. Unity and courage will result in rebuilding this once great country. Whether it takes 5 or 75 years, we have the power to make a change, if we only have the courage to change it.

I feel compelled to do a quick Satan update, because I am just steaming over her manipulation and terror. This Sunday was her visitation with my daughter, (in case you are new, she sees her two Sunday’s a month for four hours.) Satan texted me last week, and asked if she could keep her until 8:45pm last night. I figured I would use this time to ask her some questions, which she had been ignoring me on.

I texted her awhile back because she is not paying her part of the therapy bill. I can no longer send my daughter to therapy, because Satan’s half of the bill is getting larger, and if she chooses not to pay then the therapist will start collection proceeding on me. I also asked her if she was going to let her see her sisters soon. It has been 1 year and 3 months since she had last seen them.

I waited and waited with no response. I texted her again and asked her if she was going to ignore me yet again. She texted me back saying her daughter threw up in the car, and she could not respond. She said is that okay with me, clearly being sarcastic. I texted her back, and said that is fine, but if you have time to text me a rude response then you can text me the answers to my question.

About an hour later she texted me and said when and if she pays the therapist is none of my business, and neither is when she allows my daughter to see her sisters. At this point I am fuming with hate and anger. I respond and say it is my business whether or not she pays the therapist, and it is my business when she lets her see her sisters because I am her caretaker and it affects her negatively. Her response was what her and fuck face do with their daughters is none of my business. I did not respond, I did not give her an answer on whether she could keep her until 8:45.

The hate in me wanted to tell her that the court order states she can only have her until 8pm and that is what I am going to enforce. I did not do this because the person I would be hurting most would be my daughter. I figured even if I said she could not keep her she would anyway. Sunday was a school night, and I was not happy about it since my daughter would be rushed to get her nighttime duties done and would be tired for the next day.

Well 8:45 came and went, and they were not here. My daughter called my wife and told her they were lost and would be late; she sounded upset. She got home around 9:40 and immediately asked if she was going to see her therapist on Tuesday. We had to inform her that she can not see her therapist, due to finances. She said she was upset and wanted to talk to someone. She feels most comfortable talking to my wife since she has been more of a mother to her than her real mom.

She stated that she did not like how her mom always ends their visits with something sad. She said that Satan asked her if she felt comfortable with Fuck Face and her sisters being there next mothers day. Satan immediately said, nevermind you are not ready. This upset my daughter because she does not want to see Tim, and she is afraid to say anything negative towards her mom. She fears if she says anything bad then her mom will stop seeing her again.

The fucked up thing is Satan will not allow my daughter to see her sisters unless Fuck Face is with. She is using her sisters as a bargaining chip. The only way she can see them, is if she sees him. My daughter is petrified of this man and wants nothing to do with him, but so desperately wants to see her sisters. I know eventually she will crack and agree to this, or Satan will just show up on her visitation time with Fuck Face. I do know one thing, I will deny any visitation involving her step-dad.

I just hate how much pain this woman is causing my daughter. The sickest thing is she is her mother, and she knows what she is doing is causing her immense pain. I can not imagine trying to do one of my children like that. Things were so much better when this douche was not around. My daughter was finally becoming strong and happy. Ever since Satan showed up in January and wanted to see her again, my daughter has gone downhill.

The only reason her mom is in her life is because I took her to court to get full custody and child support. Once they saw I was seeking child support they suddenly wanted to see her again. I know the only reason Fuck Face wants to see her is so he can intimidate her to start spending every other weekend at their house so they can decrease child support. This shit disgusts me to no end. I want so badly to just sit my daughter down and show her all the texts I have saved. I want to try to show her that her mom does not care about her; she only cares about not paying child support. This poor little girl tries so hard to get her mom to truly love and care about her. The saddest part is she will never get that.

I am still waiting for the court’s decision on this matter. When we went to court the judge was clearly pissed at her mothers behavior, and called her out. The whole thing seemed so cut and dry. I figured a decision would come very quickly. We went to court on March 3rd and still nothing. My fear is by the time the judge revisits the paperwork, the actual court hearing will be a distant memory. He has 90 days to make his decision, so I think that means we should have a decision in no more than three weeks.

Yesterday the epic battle took place on neutral ground between the evil whore beast Satan. I was a nervous wreck prior to our stand-off. I had my wife, and my aunt in-laws Karen, and Gail for support. We were wondering who would show up with Satan for support; would it be her mother, or her husband fuck face? I thought it would be her mother, she used to be an allies until she started seeing Satan. It took all of one conversation to draw her to the dark side. I thought it would be fuck face, but my wife said “there is no way he will show his face, after all the accusations.” Satan’s allies was none other than the fuck face, the dirty little bastard showed his face.

I had an 18 minute speech prepared aimed at sending the demon back to the pits of hell. I was discouraged to find out, I would not have an option to read it. The referee started off the hearing by asking us why we were there, where we agreed, and where we disagreed. This threw me off, so I missed some key points on where we disagreed. This area was how Satan set up visitation during holidays. Satan requested our daughter spend Christmas eve, and every other Easter with her grandma. My response was if Satan herself did not want to spend holidays with her daughter, then she can not request I allow her to spend them with her grandma. I have always allowed my daughter to see her extended family, so it is not really an issue. I just thought it was stupid she requested such things. I also forgot that we disagreed on monitoring phone calls, which due to her serpent tongue this is desperately needed.

I gave my speech for why I felt I deserved full legal custody, and the beast gave hers. I am unsure which way he will rule in this area. He asked if he did not award full legal custody would it not be in the best interest of the minor child. Satan said it would be in the best interest of minor child, and stated, although we have had our up’s and down’s we have always managed to work things out. I disagreed; I pointed out to the referee how many times we have had to go to court, this should show we can not get along. I also pointed out that we do not like each other and communicating is extremely difficult. I feel there is some hope this will be awarded to me.

On the issue of child support the referee asked Satan directly “do you feel you should not have to pay child support?” Satan responded with “yes…I mean no…well not very much.” I could tell from reading the referee’s non verbal he thought the answer was stupid. He did state she will not have much of a choice in this manner. I asked the referee to base child support off of Satan’s potential income, before she decided she no longer wanted to work, she was making over $20.00 an hour roofing. Satan responded with “roofing is too dangerous; so I don’t want to do that anymore.” The referee asked her how much he should use for an hourly wage, she stated $12.00 an hour. She stated she has no degree, and no speakable skills and that finding a job would be nearly impossible. The referee asked her how much fuck face made. She responded with “I Don’t know.” He looked at her and said “you don’t know?” She skated around the question, and eventually said he works on commission so she isn’t really sure. I finally said “I am sure Satan does not want to pay child support, just like any parent wishes they did not have to pay child support on a child they see four days a year, but it is ridiculous she thinks she does not have to support her daughter.”

I could tell the referee thought she was a compleat douche. If you remember from a prior post, I stated; Satan was requiring me to carry insurance on the minor child, she felt it was not safe for her to not have traditional insurance. This was after she read we could not afford insurance. I pointed out to the referee; it would cost me 54% of my paychecks to insure her on my insurance. He looks at Satan and asks “are you willing to pay half of the medical insurance?” She snickers and says well yea as long as I don’t have to pay child support.

The referee was spending more time asking Satan questions than he was myself. After the hearing Gail told me that was a good sign, she could tell he was seeing right through her bullshit. He was not very nice to her, and told her that she clearly chose her husband over her daughter. There was much more minor insanity, which was said. She told the courts the reason she stopped seeing her daughter in March of 09 was due to me and my accusations of abuse. The referee asked her “well who told Mr. Lundmark about the allegations?” She responded with our daughter.

When it was over she stated her heart hurt over everything that has happened, and she really wants to fix her relationship with her daughter. The referee looked at her and said “how are you going to do that only seeing her 96 hours a year?” He requested she go to reconciliation therapy with her daughter, he made sure to point out she would be paying for that. There really was more said, but this is getting really long. I will not know the referees decision for another 4-6 weeks, waiting for it will be stressful.

I text Satan later that day, and told her if the referee ruled I had to carry our daughter on my insurance, and she agreed to pay half, she would owe me $625.00 a month. Stupid cootch tried to cause me financial stress, and only ended up screwing herself.

The court date is set for March 3rd, I filed the paperwork in Janurary. I am requesting full legal and physical custody, along with child support. The demon see’s her daughter two times a month for a total of 96 hours in a year. In an e-mail she agreed to give me full legal and physical custody as long as I don’t pursue child support. I did not agree; I feel she should help support her daughter. If you would like additional information; feel free to read past posts.

 I filed the court papers months ago, and I had her served by mail, since this time I have been waiting to hear her response. This is causing my anxiety to kick into hyperdrive, and is gravely affecting my life. The court papers say; if she is disputing anything, and is serving by mail it had to be post marked by the 18th of February. She lives close by, so I should have recieved the papers. If she intends to have someone serve me, it has to be 5 days before the court date.

I could no longer handle the stress, so I called family courts, I asked if the demon had filed a response. The court person, said she filed a response on the 16th of February. I stated I had not recieved yet, and it is the 23rd. I asked her if she signed an avidavid stating if she had mailed, or was I going to be served. She stated to me, that she had not filed the avidavid, which states she is mailing or serving. I had some questions stating the judge should not accept, since she violated the court rules on when she should send it. I was transfered to one of the judges assistants.

I spoke withe the judges assistant, she would not assist me in much. The feeling I got from her was not a good one. She advised me to talk to the legal support team to talk about my options. The assistant informed me; the evil one was disputing, but would not say what. I asked her about filing deadlines, she informed me I may not see the paperwork until the actual court date, she did tell me the judge would give me time to review, or reschedule the court date. I need to see those papers so I can mount my defense. I am not okay with rescheduling, this whole situation has not been good for my mental health.

I called the self help legal team, but the wait time for a call backl is 3-4 business days. I have delt with the self help desk before, and they do not assist much over the phone. They advise you to come in, which is not an option. My daughter has school patrol all week, and her grandma picks her up from school. I have a feeling she will be the one to serve me on Friday. This will put the nail in the coffen for our relationship. There was a time when she was not allowed to speak to Satan, and she was very friendly; she praised us many times, stating my daughter was better off not seeing her mom, and that we were great parents. Since her reunion with the demon, she has not said a word to us.

Here is my biggest problem, because I did not agree with the beast on child support she is on a rampage for revenge. She does not give a shit what is in her daughters best interest. She is spiteful, through our whole relationship she has used our daughter to try and hurt me. I fear that she will request 50% physical custody so she does not have to pay child support, or request that she live with her full time. I made a promise to my daughter that I would never allow her to see fuck face, and that I will protect her from him.

I hope the judge can see, she is only doing this because she does not want to pay child support. Since March 2009, she has only seen her four times, for a total of 12 hours. She was invited to go to parents day, and watch our daughter perform in a concert. She never came, times between their visits she does not attempt to contact her. This evil manipulating douche bag, does not care what is in her daughters best interest, she only cares about revenge.

I do not mean Satan in the literal sense. Satan refers to the most evil diabolical human on this planet; my daughters mother.

I received a call from my daughters’ therapist yesterday, she told me Satan had called her and requested a release of information. The therapist wanted to get confirmation that she had 50% legal custody over our daughter. I informed her that she did for the time being.

I served Satan, the court papers for our March 3rd battle. I am seeking physical and legal custody, and requesting she pay child support. I know she went on a temper-tantrum about some of the affidavits we collected. One of those affidavits was from her therapist, stating our daughter should not be allowed around her husband aka Fuck Face; it also stated her mother needed to come up with a consistent schedule, and allow her to see her sisters.

I am unsure what she is up to, but it worries me. We have a rock solid case, but Satan is as devious as she is evil. She sent me an e-mail saying she will see Brianna the second and fourth Sunday, of the month for four hours, further more she is still not allowed to see her sisters. She also stated she would give me physical and legal custody as long as she does not have to pay child support. Finally she said that we both need to be flexible on the Sundays if something were to ever come up.

I agreed with everything in her proposal, except child support. This demon see’s her daughter 96 hours a year, which totals a whopping 4 days and expects to not help raise her financially! Satan chooses to not work; hence feels she is not obligated to pay child support. This is simply unacceptable. If the roles were reversed and a man walked into court trying to say he shouldn’t pay child support, because he doesn’t want to work, the courts would crucify his ass, especially if he has done the things to his child this beast has. I stated it in an earlier article, my fear is the judge will just be pro woman, not looking at the facts, and what’s worse sympathize with her.

Satan’s visit with our daughter was scheduled for this Sunday. She was invited to a sleepover birthday party from Sunday to Monday. She wanted to go to the sleepover, and change the weekend she saw her mother. I relayed this to Satan, and she stated she is unwilling to switch weekends, she said she was looking forward to seeing her again, and it was up to our daughter what she wanted to do. If she was going to choose a birthday party over her, then she didn’t want to see her. Needless to say my daughter was devastated her mom would not be flexible. Again for the five hundredth time, we need to comfort a little ten-year old girl. We needed to somehow try to explain her moms actions.

She stated in her proposal she wanted flexibility. How can she say that she is looking forward to seeing her again, but won’t change her weekend? This makes no sense; I am hoping the judge will see through all of this. I just want to do a quick recap, I am sorry if some of this is repetitive.

From March 9th 2009 to January 8th 2010, Satan has seen her daughter twice, for a total of four hours. She sent her a letter in October 2009 saying she was no longer going to call or see her. In November I wanted to make this legal. I received a text back saying she did not want to make it legal, and she now wants to see her. Since end of August 2009, she has talked to her on the phone two times. I had told Satan she could talk to her, but must be through my phone with me listening This is due to the sick shit she would tell her, since I told her this in August, she has never requested to speak to her daughter. It has been 10 months since Brianna has seen her sisters.

I am so eager to see what her evil plan will be. I am assuming I will receive her court rebuttal sometime in early February. I truly am sick with disgust and anxiety over what she is going to say. Since I would not agree to stop the pursuit of collecting child support, this evil, manipulative, vengeful demon bitch will go for my jugular. Whatever her diabolical intentions are, I can say with certainty she will not have our daughters best interest in mind.

At 4:00pm today Satan came and picked up my daughter. This is the first time that Brianna has seen her in six months. She was so nervous, and made every effort to make sure that everything she was wearing was something that came from her mom (Satan). I am so worried about what is going to happen. I think it is sad that my daughter tries so hard to impress this evil spawn with wearing the cheap jewelry that she never wears just to make this douche happy.

The last time that Brianna spent a weekend at Satan’s house was March 6 2009. Since this time Satan has seen her two times for a total of four hours. That means that their visit today will equal as much time they have seen each other in 10 months! Words cannot even describe how evil this woman is, anyone who can just totally fuck up their kid as bad as she did is completely unacceptable in my eyes.

Satan should receive the court papers either tomorrow or Tuesday. I can’t wait to see what her reply is, I am sure it will be filled with lies and utter goofiness. I cannot wait for March 3rd the final battle between good and evil will take place. I will keep everyone updated on this tragic situation.

Tomorrow is the day, I am finally able to go down to good ole Hennepin County and file the Custody and Child Support papers against my daughters’ mother. This has been months in the making, and I am relieved that the wheels will finally be set in motion and justice be served. I am aware that this is far from open and shut; I have to accept the facts, I am entering a world that still largely rules in the favor of the mother, even though in this situation she is clearly wrong. Let me give you a quick backdrop on this doozy of a story. To hide the names of the guilty I shall only refer to my daughters’ mother as Satan.

Satan and I hooked up, and as luck would have it she got pregnant. Against my better judgment I proposed to her out of mix of responsibility and pure stupidity. After spending many nights with Satan I realize that this woman is the dumbest person in the entire world, and having conversations with her is like talking to a rock… I take that back a rock is better because a rock does not come back with stupid ass opinions on things. Realizing that I am about to marry an uneducated hillbilly douche bag I quickly exited the relationship. If you do not believe me on the level of idiocy that this woman holds let me give you a brief example. I moved out barely talked to her and moved in with some friends two of which were females. Even after these three obvious hints she still thought we were together.

After Satan saw the light she did what Satan does and tries to hurt me, and what is her weapon? She decides to use our daughter to get back at me ala not letting me see her, so I take her to court and I am awarded 50/50 legal and physical custody. Through the following years there were times we got along, and times where we loathed each other. Through all this we seemed to work things out until she met her future husband who moving forward will be referred to as fuck face.

Satan marries fuck face, and they begin to build their life together. This sounds nice except fuck face cannot accept my daughter into the family they were trying to build. My daughter would come to my house on visits and tell of horrendous stories of being mistreated. This continues to go on until my daughter starts speaking her mind, and one summer I am told by Satan that they would like to have her live with me and my wife. They said that they will see her every other weekend. This turned into the first and the third weekend which turned into whenever Satan could see her, which turned into a letter from Satan saying that she no longer wants to see her. There are many stories that go behind this, but I just realized that I am not writing a novel here.

This letter came the first or second week of October; the last time that she spent a weekend at her moms was the first weekend of March 2009. From March to October Satan has seen her two times for a total of four hours, and had denied her the right to see her sisters. The letter clearly said that she was no longer going to call or see her; I figured we should make this legal. I send Satan a text asking if she would sign off on giving me full custody. She sent me a text saying that she was not going to do that, and in fact she wanted to see her. I even received a text from fuck face wanting to talk to my daughter, when I relayed the message to her there was an intense fear in her eye, and she told me that if I say no he will come and get me. I held her in my arms while she begged me to promise her that I would never let him get to her. I relayed the message to fuck face that as long as I have a breath he will never see her.

I managed to talk to Satan and long story short is she will agree to give me full legal and physical custody as long as she did not have to pay child support. I declined such an offer because she should help support her. This disagreement is why we are going to court. Satan told me that she wants to see her on the second and fourth Sunday of every month from 4-8. Her sisters will not be allowed on these visits.

The entire story is sick and twisted and frankly pisses me off; the things that have been done or said to my daughter in my eyes are unforgivable. A parent should not treat their child in such a manner. Tomorrow is the beginning of the final confrontation. Will justice prevail, or will I get shit on? All the facts are there, letters from her family members, letters from her therapist, letters from school, and most importantly letters from Satan. You would think that this is an open and shut case; unfortunately we are dealing with a broken justice system, in which anything is possible except real justice.