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Satan’s Manipulation Tactics

Satan is up to her old manipulative and diabolical tricks again. My daughter had a visit with her last weekend. She is using manipulation tactics to try and get our daughter to see her husband Fuck Face. Satan is using my daughters’ sisters as the tool to achieve this. She has been chipping away at her for the past ten months, saying she can only see her sisters is if she agrees to see Fuck Face with them. She tells her she cannot see them because Fuck Face believes she will bad mouth him in front of them. The only way she can see them is if he is there to monitor. It has been a year and seven months since she has seen them.

My daughter was severely traumatized by this man; he verbally and emotionally abused her while she was living with them over two years ago. He would mistreat her anytime her mom was not around. When she would complain Fuck Face would say she was lying and she would get punished for saying something. The punishments they gave her were severe. They would confine her to her room for a month at a time. She was not able to leave her room for any reason. Meals were served to her on a tray, and she was not even able to bring the plates down; somebody picked them up from her room. There were other punishments, but this was the major punishment which really got under my skin.

There was another time Fuck Face was throwing bottle caps at her while she was doing the dishes. She asked him to stop and he just laughed away and kept doing it, then laid into her because she started to cry. He would find any reason to punish and aggressively attack her. As an example; my daughter was walking up the stairs, and as she was walking up she woke up her mom. She was punished to her room punishment, and had to clean the entire house. In fact I do not think there was a week that went by where she was not on house cleanup.

While she was living with them, she complained all the time he was mistreating her. When I would confront them about this they would call her a liar. He would tell me all these untrue horrible things she said about me. When I told him these things were untrue he said “see see she is a compulsive liar.” They would tell me the only reason she is saying this is because she wanted to live with me. I figured this would have stoped once she moved in with me. I feel like shit for ever doubting what she was telling me.

He must have enjoyed the mental mind fuck he was doing to her, because he couldn’t even stop after she moved in with me. I started to believe everything she was telling me when she still complained of mistreatment on her every other weekend visits,. The final occurrence in March of 09 was the straw that broke the camels back. She came home very upset saying Fuck Face called her a sin child, and unlike her sisters who were born into love, and that is why they are better than her. He told her “you wouldn’t want to have a kid like you would you?” I confronted them; telling them this behavior stops now! I demanded Fuck Face no longer be left along with my daughter, because this is when these things are happening. Satan said that is fine, she was no longer welcomed over there. She has not been back since.

In November Fuck Face sent me a text asking to speak with her (after he found out he may have to pay child support.) When I told her this she started to cry and shiver. She said if she says no he will come and get her, because he knows when she is home alone. She made me promise her I would protect her from him. I have lived up to this promise until now. How do I combat what Satan is doing? I knew eventually if she kept hanging this carrot of seeing her sisters in front of her she would finally break down and agree to see him. My daughter stayed strong and would not agree to this. She would even ask why she can’t just see her sisters without Fuck Face. Her mom would just say “you just can’t.” Yesterday she finally caved in.

I am at a loss for what to do. I cannot control Satan’s tactics; even if I confronted her about this she would just tell me to fuck off. She does not want to see him but says there is no other way she can see her sisters. Should I not allow her to go with if Fuck Face is there? Her therapist wrote a letter to the courts saying it is not in her best interest to see him. The Judge said she should also not see him, until Satan and my daughter go though intense therapy together. I know what there agenda is to get to the point where they do not have to pay child support. I mean c’mon her mom didn’t want to see her until she was threatened with the realization she was going to have to pay child support. I just need to know what the best thing to do is.

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I was flying on such a wonderful happy streak. It was fantastic to wake up in the morning and be excited to see what the day would bring. It was great not sweating the small stuff. It was fantastic to have a smile on my face. It was glories how I was interacting with my family. My kids were happier seeing me happier. These things were so great, and it sustained day after day. This happiness I have been feeling has left me alone and allowed the darkness back in.

There were some bumps I had during my happy streak, but I was so easily able to just let them shed away. Now it seems everything is the end of the world. I hate feeling this way, I just can not stand it. This pain is so deep and painful I can hardly breathe. I feel like I am going to vomit. I just want it to all end. I think what makes this one so bad, is the time I have had between depressions. It is like I have forgotten what my second home feels like.

It was only a matter of time before the darkness welcomed me home. Why was I so stupid to think the night would never come? This fucking place! His cold hands have taken me home. The fucked up thing is I will never be able to write about everything, I will not be able to speak about this place he leads me to. This is his home, and I do not like it in here.

Arrows launched

By kingdoms lost

Darkens the sun set sky

Advancing soldiers slowly die

Arrows penetrate

The flesh of long gone peace

The kingdom they love so much

Under siege by the dying breed

Their relentless advancement

 Despite

The blood soaked fields

Their bodies drop

Feeding war fueled crops

The people shout

With foaming mouths

Defend our kingdom!

Defend the people!

A battle sword glimmers

In the moon lit night

The wall has crumbled

The fetal comfort violated

Our freedom lost

Blood shed in the name of charlatans

Flags lowered

The masses raped

By corporate cocks

Victory to the dying breed

By: Tim Lundmark

Yesterday the epic battle took place on neutral ground between the evil whore beast Satan. I was a nervous wreck prior to our stand-off. I had my wife, and my aunt in-laws Karen, and Gail for support. We were wondering who would show up with Satan for support; would it be her mother, or her husband fuck face? I thought it would be her mother, she used to be an allies until she started seeing Satan. It took all of one conversation to draw her to the dark side. I thought it would be fuck face, but my wife said “there is no way he will show his face, after all the accusations.” Satan’s allies was none other than the fuck face, the dirty little bastard showed his face.

I had an 18 minute speech prepared aimed at sending the demon back to the pits of hell. I was discouraged to find out, I would not have an option to read it. The referee started off the hearing by asking us why we were there, where we agreed, and where we disagreed. This threw me off, so I missed some key points on where we disagreed. This area was how Satan set up visitation during holidays. Satan requested our daughter spend Christmas eve, and every other Easter with her grandma. My response was if Satan herself did not want to spend holidays with her daughter, then she can not request I allow her to spend them with her grandma. I have always allowed my daughter to see her extended family, so it is not really an issue. I just thought it was stupid she requested such things. I also forgot that we disagreed on monitoring phone calls, which due to her serpent tongue this is desperately needed.

I gave my speech for why I felt I deserved full legal custody, and the beast gave hers. I am unsure which way he will rule in this area. He asked if he did not award full legal custody would it not be in the best interest of the minor child. Satan said it would be in the best interest of minor child, and stated, although we have had our up’s and down’s we have always managed to work things out. I disagreed; I pointed out to the referee how many times we have had to go to court, this should show we can not get along. I also pointed out that we do not like each other and communicating is extremely difficult. I feel there is some hope this will be awarded to me.

On the issue of child support the referee asked Satan directly “do you feel you should not have to pay child support?” Satan responded with “yes…I mean no…well not very much.” I could tell from reading the referee’s non verbal he thought the answer was stupid. He did state she will not have much of a choice in this manner. I asked the referee to base child support off of Satan’s potential income, before she decided she no longer wanted to work, she was making over $20.00 an hour roofing. Satan responded with “roofing is too dangerous; so I don’t want to do that anymore.” The referee asked her how much he should use for an hourly wage, she stated $12.00 an hour. She stated she has no degree, and no speakable skills and that finding a job would be nearly impossible. The referee asked her how much fuck face made. She responded with “I Don’t know.” He looked at her and said “you don’t know?” She skated around the question, and eventually said he works on commission so she isn’t really sure. I finally said “I am sure Satan does not want to pay child support, just like any parent wishes they did not have to pay child support on a child they see four days a year, but it is ridiculous she thinks she does not have to support her daughter.”

I could tell the referee thought she was a compleat douche. If you remember from a prior post, I stated; Satan was requiring me to carry insurance on the minor child, she felt it was not safe for her to not have traditional insurance. This was after she read we could not afford insurance. I pointed out to the referee; it would cost me 54% of my paychecks to insure her on my insurance. He looks at Satan and asks “are you willing to pay half of the medical insurance?” She snickers and says well yea as long as I don’t have to pay child support.

The referee was spending more time asking Satan questions than he was myself. After the hearing Gail told me that was a good sign, she could tell he was seeing right through her bullshit. He was not very nice to her, and told her that she clearly chose her husband over her daughter. There was much more minor insanity, which was said. She told the courts the reason she stopped seeing her daughter in March of 09 was due to me and my accusations of abuse. The referee asked her “well who told Mr. Lundmark about the allegations?” She responded with our daughter.

When it was over she stated her heart hurt over everything that has happened, and she really wants to fix her relationship with her daughter. The referee looked at her and said “how are you going to do that only seeing her 96 hours a year?” He requested she go to reconciliation therapy with her daughter, he made sure to point out she would be paying for that. There really was more said, but this is getting really long. I will not know the referees decision for another 4-6 weeks, waiting for it will be stressful.

I text Satan later that day, and told her if the referee ruled I had to carry our daughter on my insurance, and she agreed to pay half, she would owe me $625.00 a month. Stupid cootch tried to cause me financial stress, and only ended up screwing herself.

I was finally served yesterday by some douche bag in a camouflage Carhartt jacket. He was smug and grinned when he handed me the papers, as if this action intimidated me. I would like everyone to know; the day before I was served I had to send a text to the evil one, stating what the laws are regarding being served. Apparently she can not read, or maybe she just can’t handle simple instructions, either way she’s dumb. The following was in her response.

She is not disputing full physical custody, she is however disputing full legal custody. She is requesting I carry our daughter under my insurance. She is requesting to not have to pay any child support. Her final request was that her mother be awarded to see our daughter every Christmas Eve, as well as every other Easter. There was a few other issues brought up, I will clump those together under psychotic non-sense.

I was relieved to see that she was not disputing physical custody. Her proposed schedule was to see the minor child the second and fourth Sunday from 4-8pm. She stated; at this time it is not in her children’s best interest to see their sister, she neglected to give a time frame when it would be allowed. She stated when the time was right she wanted the minor child to see her step father fuck face.

It stated she was not willing to give up legal custody, because she thinks my religious views would be damaging, and she wants to make sure she can expose our daughter to her religion. She was uncomfortable with giving me to much power, because I might not allow our daughter to see her extended family. I hope the judge see’s in our documentation where Satan agreed to give me full legal custody as long as she doesn’t pay any child support. When it comes to her religious argument it is null and void, the simple fact is I still have 50% legal custody which means she can not expose our daughter to any religion without my consent. Her reasons are pathetic and a reach at best. I want to add, I am not against our daughter being religious; I do however want her to choose her faith when she hits the age of reason. I do not expose her to my belief system, unless she asks directly. Satan has stated many times over the phone, and in letters stating; god has given her guidance and that is the reason she is unable to see her or her sisters. She stated god is punishing her by not letting her see her mom or her sisters. I really do not want my daughter involved in any crazy shit like that.

She requested I carry our daughter under my insurance, because she is very concerned if something happened to the minor child it would be catastrophic. First off insurance or not if something drastic happened they would still treat her. The insurance at my employer is extremely expensive, the deductions from my check would be $526.60 a paycheck this amount would be taken from all 26 of my paychecks. In a year this would cost me $13,691.60, this is 54% of my gross income. This insurance plan comes with a deductible of $5,000.00, which means I would pay out $18,691.60 a year before coverage would even kick in. This request is ridiculous. My wifes insurance is no better, we would have to pay in $9,776.00 before insurance would kick in. It would cost Satan $0.00 a year to add Brianna to her insurance. If this demon whore is that concerned about us having traditional insurance, why would she not add her to their insurance?

In her papers, she requested to not have to pay any child support. She stated that such a request was unreasonable and unfair. I find this laughable, Satan has contributed $0.00 beyond her court ordered $100.00 a month. She states; when visitation was changed we had a verbal agreement, and asks the courts they honor that. The verbal agreement was made with the assumption she would contribute to supporting her, and if she wants to talk about agreements what about the ordered visitation? She has no problem disregarding the court ordered visitations. The balls on this women to think she should contribute nothing.

The request to have our daughter with her grandma on certain holidays is completely ridiculous. Why is she not requesting to see HER daughter on holidays? This custody case is between me and the devil, not the spawner of evil.

In her affidavit she still called her daughter a liar, she stated she was regretful; she did not call regularly. If she learned this lesson why does she not call and talk to her now. She talked to her in December and once in January. If she is so regretful why is she not calling. The kicker was an affidavit from fuck face; stating he did nothing wrong, but was regretful he did not embrace my daughter with open arms. He also stated he learned from his mistake, and wants my daughter to be a part of his family. I say this to you fuck face, if you have learned your lesson and you indeed are sorry, then why are you not allowing my daughter to see her sisters? March 9th will be a year since she has seen her siblings.

I can not wait for court on March 3rd, if the judge has any common sense he will look at Satan and call her out for her lies and bullshit. The epic battle is almost upon us.

The court date is set for March 3rd, I filed the paperwork in Janurary. I am requesting full legal and physical custody, along with child support. The demon see’s her daughter two times a month for a total of 96 hours in a year. In an e-mail she agreed to give me full legal and physical custody as long as I don’t pursue child support. I did not agree; I feel she should help support her daughter. If you would like additional information; feel free to read past posts.

 I filed the court papers months ago, and I had her served by mail, since this time I have been waiting to hear her response. This is causing my anxiety to kick into hyperdrive, and is gravely affecting my life. The court papers say; if she is disputing anything, and is serving by mail it had to be post marked by the 18th of February. She lives close by, so I should have recieved the papers. If she intends to have someone serve me, it has to be 5 days before the court date.

I could no longer handle the stress, so I called family courts, I asked if the demon had filed a response. The court person, said she filed a response on the 16th of February. I stated I had not recieved yet, and it is the 23rd. I asked her if she signed an avidavid stating if she had mailed, or was I going to be served. She stated to me, that she had not filed the avidavid, which states she is mailing or serving. I had some questions stating the judge should not accept, since she violated the court rules on when she should send it. I was transfered to one of the judges assistants.

I spoke withe the judges assistant, she would not assist me in much. The feeling I got from her was not a good one. She advised me to talk to the legal support team to talk about my options. The assistant informed me; the evil one was disputing, but would not say what. I asked her about filing deadlines, she informed me I may not see the paperwork until the actual court date, she did tell me the judge would give me time to review, or reschedule the court date. I need to see those papers so I can mount my defense. I am not okay with rescheduling, this whole situation has not been good for my mental health.

I called the self help legal team, but the wait time for a call backl is 3-4 business days. I have delt with the self help desk before, and they do not assist much over the phone. They advise you to come in, which is not an option. My daughter has school patrol all week, and her grandma picks her up from school. I have a feeling she will be the one to serve me on Friday. This will put the nail in the coffen for our relationship. There was a time when she was not allowed to speak to Satan, and she was very friendly; she praised us many times, stating my daughter was better off not seeing her mom, and that we were great parents. Since her reunion with the demon, she has not said a word to us.

Here is my biggest problem, because I did not agree with the beast on child support she is on a rampage for revenge. She does not give a shit what is in her daughters best interest. She is spiteful, through our whole relationship she has used our daughter to try and hurt me. I fear that she will request 50% physical custody so she does not have to pay child support, or request that she live with her full time. I made a promise to my daughter that I would never allow her to see fuck face, and that I will protect her from him.

I hope the judge can see, she is only doing this because she does not want to pay child support. Since March 2009, she has only seen her four times, for a total of 12 hours. She was invited to go to parents day, and watch our daughter perform in a concert. She never came, times between their visits she does not attempt to contact her. This evil manipulating douche bag, does not care what is in her daughters best interest, she only cares about revenge.

The Yin Yang is a symbol of duality. Verse two of the Tao Te Ching says “we can only know beauty because there is ugliness. All can know good as good only because there is evil.” Looking at a Yin Yang symbol we see white within the black, and black within the white. This is telling us within one thing lies the other. In darkness we see light, and vice verses. Taoist know there is no such thing as ugly, or beautiful. These are man-made concepts, and to view the world in such a judgmental way keeps us from living a good life. This also applies to good and evil. We only know one because there is the other, and these definitions are defined by man.

In order to explain this I need you to take a step back, clear your mind of any societal induced versions of what is deemed good and what is deemed evil. You also need to put aside any personal view points on what is moral and the concept of a conscience.

We are born into this world as a clean slate. The only concepts we have in our mind is our primal urges. These are things that are bred into any creature on this earth. Holding onto this concept of a clean slate, we learn how to crawl, walk, and speak. These are actions we knew nothing of, until we were taught. As you grow, you begin to learn what behaviors are acceptable and which ones are not. You were not born knowing the difference between the two. Are you born knowing to not touch a hot stove? No, you are either told, or you touched a hot stove and burned yourself. This is all learned, you are not born with this knowledge. As you grow older this concept becomes more complex.

When you are born do you know the concept of beauty, or is it defined to you? The media, family, and peers define this concept. When we are born do we know of God? This is taught through our parents and religious establishments. This could be elaborated on over and over; point is everything we know we are taught.

I was debating with my wife on this concept yesterday, and she brought up morals, and the individuals self conscience. She was saying that all humans are born with a conscience and know right from wrong. The same applies to the concept of morality. When we are born, do we know it is morally wrong to steal? No, our parents, schools, peers, religions, the media, and our society’s laws teach us this concept. The question then is where does our conscience come into play. The answer is simple; we are told through all these different channels that stealing is bad. Your conscience is reinforcing what it was taught, which was stealing is bad.

If you are still thinking I am wrong, look at suicide bombers, or feuding ethnic groups in Africa. The follower is taught that by blowing himself up and killing infidels, he will be greeted in heaven and awarded 72 virgins. It is taught that the greatest way to please God is to become a martyr. To the believer the act of killing is righteous. In Africa you are taught to hate rival tribes. It is considered noble to kill your enemy, in fact they see no problem with genocide.

It is hard for us to believe that we are rewarded in heaven if we kill non believers. It is even harder to imagine committing genocide. We view these actions as immoral, and evil, they view these actions as just and righteous. The difference between is how we are raised.

The concept of good and evil is man-made. Morality and ethics are subjective to the individual. Insanity and sane is defined only by our society, night and day are just man-made concepts to define the differences between the two.

Last night I was looking at pictures of my younger sister’s newborn baby on Facebook. As I went from one picture to the next I was feeling a sense of joy, from seeing her first-born child. My emotions turned upside down when a picture of her father holding Lily popped up. Seeing a picture of the man who tormented me for so many years was a bit shocking, many emotions welled up inside me ranging from hate to sympathy. I laid on the couch, and an urge came to text my sister, and ask for my estranged step-fathers number. Shortly thereafter I received his number, and programmed it into my phone. It was too late to call him, so I decided to what until tomorrow to make the call. I woke up this morning, and felt trepidation mixed with excitement to make the call. I waited and waited filled with nerves I haven’t felt in many years. I finally built up the courage to call around 4:30pm. I think a little background information is in order, before I continue this story.

My mother and father divorced when I was very young, maybe two or three I really don’t remember. Shortly after the divorce my mother met Sam; I was young when they first got together so I really do not recall their early relationship, or what it was like living with him. I am sure he was nice and charming, for if he treated us kids the way he did later in life I cannot fathom why she would have stayed with him.

My earliest memory, of when things started to go horribly wrong was around eight years old. We moved into a new house, by this time my mom and Sam had already had two children together. The house we moved into was two levels, my sisters and I slept in the basement, while my mom, Sam, and their two young children slept upstairs. It was not until I got much older; I realized the true symbolism of this separation. The following years were filled with living in utter fear, I am not going to go into detail on this subject. The psychological pain is far too much to have to re-live.

My mom had many fights with Sam over the way he treated my older sisters and I. She started to notice this type of environment was unhealthy. She wanted to protect me, but was in a lose-lose situation so in In 5th grade I was sent to live with my Grandma. I lasted there for a year before my behaviors’ became too much for her to handle. I was then sent to live with my father and his abusive alcoholic wife for nine months before she got drunk and kicked me out. The whole time I was living there my father did nothing to protect me.

With nowhere else to go I was sent back to my moms. I did not know which was worse; dealing with the sadistic shit at my dad’s or the sadistic shit at my moms. I stayed with my mom for I think two years, before I was sent off to live with my sister, then back with dad, back with sister, back with mom, kicked out nowhere to go ended up with friend, then finally I found some stability when my best friend’s parents took me in. The three years I lived there, ended up being the most stable years of my childhood.

The things that my step-father did to me at such a young age, I would not wish on my worst enemy. The verbal abuse was intense, the physical threats were terrifying, and the emotional damage I carry to this day… devastating. Regardless of my deep seeded fear of this man, all I really wanted was his acceptance. I tried so hard to find a common bond, and hear from him just once how he was proud of me.

My father was in and out of my life, so for better or worse he was my father figure, and like any child I only wanted his love and affection. These are things I would never receive, instead I would be told consistently how big of a piece of shit I was, and how I would amount to nothing just like my father. His psychological abuse was so bad, that past 8pm I would fear leaving my room so much, that If I needed to use the bathroom I would piss in a bottle. I was 16 at the time. After the last time I was kicked out I did not have much contact with Sam, I would have panic attacks the times I went to go visit my mom and he would not say a word to me. I would have panic attacks anytime I would call her and he answered the phone.

When I was 19 my mom, Sam and my younger siblings moved to Northern Minnesota; from then on I saw very little of them. I would have brief chats with Sam if I called and he answered, or the few times I visited up there. A few years back my mother finally wised up and divorced him, after gambling away hundreds of thousands dollars and making her life hell she finally had enough. It has taken me years to totally forgive my mother, and to actually want to have a real relationship with her and his children. I didn’t realize my mother always had my best interests in mind, and she did everything to protect me.

The times I have gone up to visit my mom, I always think about stopping by to see him, or from time to time give him a call. I never followed through with it until today. I figured if I called him and said that I have a beautiful wife and three wonderful children, a house with nice things in it, and just had a book published, maybe I would finally hear him say he was proud of me. I may finally gain his approval, and in that put many demons to rest.

I should defiantly lower my expectations in life. When I called and told him it was me, his response was “ya so” I didn’t know how to respond to that, so I tried to do some small talk. He was a complete asshole to me, he said that he hates my generation; he said that if he would have called his mom after all that time of not talking to her she would have hung up on him. I apologized for calling, and said it won’t happen again. He said good and hung up. In that instant I was left feeling like the scared, rejected, pathetic child I am.

I do not mean Satan in the literal sense. Satan refers to the most evil diabolical human on this planet; my daughters mother.

I received a call from my daughters’ therapist yesterday, she told me Satan had called her and requested a release of information. The therapist wanted to get confirmation that she had 50% legal custody over our daughter. I informed her that she did for the time being.

I served Satan, the court papers for our March 3rd battle. I am seeking physical and legal custody, and requesting she pay child support. I know she went on a temper-tantrum about some of the affidavits we collected. One of those affidavits was from her therapist, stating our daughter should not be allowed around her husband aka Fuck Face; it also stated her mother needed to come up with a consistent schedule, and allow her to see her sisters.

I am unsure what she is up to, but it worries me. We have a rock solid case, but Satan is as devious as she is evil. She sent me an e-mail saying she will see Brianna the second and fourth Sunday, of the month for four hours, further more she is still not allowed to see her sisters. She also stated she would give me physical and legal custody as long as she does not have to pay child support. Finally she said that we both need to be flexible on the Sundays if something were to ever come up.

I agreed with everything in her proposal, except child support. This demon see’s her daughter 96 hours a year, which totals a whopping 4 days and expects to not help raise her financially! Satan chooses to not work; hence feels she is not obligated to pay child support. This is simply unacceptable. If the roles were reversed and a man walked into court trying to say he shouldn’t pay child support, because he doesn’t want to work, the courts would crucify his ass, especially if he has done the things to his child this beast has. I stated it in an earlier article, my fear is the judge will just be pro woman, not looking at the facts, and what’s worse sympathize with her.

Satan’s visit with our daughter was scheduled for this Sunday. She was invited to a sleepover birthday party from Sunday to Monday. She wanted to go to the sleepover, and change the weekend she saw her mother. I relayed this to Satan, and she stated she is unwilling to switch weekends, she said she was looking forward to seeing her again, and it was up to our daughter what she wanted to do. If she was going to choose a birthday party over her, then she didn’t want to see her. Needless to say my daughter was devastated her mom would not be flexible. Again for the five hundredth time, we need to comfort a little ten-year old girl. We needed to somehow try to explain her moms actions.

She stated in her proposal she wanted flexibility. How can she say that she is looking forward to seeing her again, but won’t change her weekend? This makes no sense; I am hoping the judge will see through all of this. I just want to do a quick recap, I am sorry if some of this is repetitive.

From March 9th 2009 to January 8th 2010, Satan has seen her daughter twice, for a total of four hours. She sent her a letter in October 2009 saying she was no longer going to call or see her. In November I wanted to make this legal. I received a text back saying she did not want to make it legal, and she now wants to see her. Since end of August 2009, she has talked to her on the phone two times. I had told Satan she could talk to her, but must be through my phone with me listening This is due to the sick shit she would tell her, since I told her this in August, she has never requested to speak to her daughter. It has been 10 months since Brianna has seen her sisters.

I am so eager to see what her evil plan will be. I am assuming I will receive her court rebuttal sometime in early February. I truly am sick with disgust and anxiety over what she is going to say. Since I would not agree to stop the pursuit of collecting child support, this evil, manipulative, vengeful demon bitch will go for my jugular. Whatever her diabolical intentions are, I can say with certainty she will not have our daughters best interest in mind.

I would like to start with an apology, I started an 8 part series on the seven deadly sins, and as I was sitting here prepping to write part 6. I decided I was not going to do it. Why you ask? Well because I told myself I had to do it, so I was compelled to do the opposite.

I would like to vent a frustration on how pissed off I am about being rapped and robbed by insurance companies, without even the courtesy of a reach around. I am married and have three kids, for those of you who failed math class that is a family of five.

We were lucky last year because the coverage was better, and we reached our max out of pocket so for the last half of the year everything was free. Enter 2010 at my wife’s work the insurance amount raised as did the deductible. If she were to carry insurance on the family it would be over $600.00 a month with $5k deductible. At $600.00 a month that is $7,200.00 a year, plus we need to reach the $5k deductible before the fucking insurance will even kick in. Damn my ass hurts now!

We decided that the cost vs. the reward was not worth carrying insurance. In order to carry insurance for the entire family at my employer is over $1,314.00 a month. That is 70% of my pay each paycheck, plus I have a high deductible on top of it. Ouch it hurts even more.

This is totally out of hand; it would be nice to be on Minnesota Care, or some other health care plan. There is only one problem with that we are not welfare trash, so apparently the tax payers would rather pay for people who are completely useless compared to people who are actually trying. I am not saying everyone on welfare is trash. I am talking about the countless number of people who abuse the system.

 I find this system very disturbing. Apparently it is more important to pay for the birth of a single mother who just had her fifth kid, all with different fathers mind you, instead of honest hardworking people who simply can’t afford their employers healthcare plans. The ones who really need it are turned away in favor of people who abuse it. God you really have to love America.

                  I sincerely hope this new healthcare reform bill rectifies these current injustices against blue-collar Americans. As it stands now I have to just pray that none of my kids need to go to the emergency room. The result of said action will spiral us further into debt. Insurance in general is an “in case shit happens” business, that makes billions of dollars a year because most of the time they find loop holes to where they won’t cover you, or simply the “shit” just doesn’t happen. The whole system is fucked, and I want insurance in general to stay away from my ass and my wallet