Posts Tagged ‘funeral playlist’

I am not sure if I should Post the lyrics as I have been, or if the correct versions being posted is enough. Every song on my funeral playlist has significant meaning and some are meant for specific individuals. So I am going to try just the video

watch this funeral playlist video

If I am unable to get all the correct songs and versions their is a playlist on my phone. 

Holding my breath not taking a step

The good church has closed it’s doors on me

God don’t like my dirty feet
Burning the lawn everyone’s gone
Ain’t no barbeque going on today
I drink my dinner in the shade

Days and days go by
Children laughing still I don’t smile at all
Mary’s calling to me can’t you see what I see
She would never let me down

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

Been living a lie my kisses are dry
I got nowhere else left to run
My love is blind deaf and dumb
Heaven can’t wait to lock up the gate
Tell me that I never could belong
I had my chance but got it wrong

Days and days go by
Children laughing still I don’t smile at all
Mary’s calling to me can’t you see what I see
She would never let me down

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

Mother Mary stay with me don’t let me die
You’re the only good part left of my trash
God knows I can’t change me
I’ve tried and tried I never meant to make you cry

It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here

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Someone commented on a post I did a long time ago about the meaning of this song. It would be a crime if I didn’t include it.

https://youtu.be/Lmm_c5V6Olg

A slow strangle with your feet on the floor

I’ve got 14 angels and we’re sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I’m in pain but I won’t let you Band-Aid my wound
I am mad at a stage where I can’t even handle my own (can’t even handle my)

Give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
Until the end
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind… To combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find
But I have and I won’t let them go like I do with my friends (my friends)

Still hearing voices… From front… From behind
They’re the reasons I choose… When to live… How to die
When to cast… When to reel
When to buy… When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taught you
Being inappropriate will

Give me a quiet mind and I
I still love you
You give me a quiet mind and I
I love you
You give me a quiet (quiet) mind and I
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I (you give me)
And I love you
Until the end

This was the question my therapist asked me when I told her about posting the songs I want played ar my Let’s Get Stoned and Listen to meaningful music chill service. This of course my working title. I would never want a funeral in a church, frankly I don’t think God would approve it anyway. I also don’t want a depressing wear black hand out stupid lies about how much of a good person I was. I just want to be cremated or mummified so I could be used as a Halloween decoration. I certainly do not want a sign in book, I think that ends up being the final truth when you have 10 people sign it. I am way of topic, but she asked me if I had ever talked to anyone about how I want things to be handled if I were to die of natural causes or by Suicide I didn’t really know butt it is now listed here that those are my wishes. All that is needed are my 4 books and a list of specific version of songs to be played and people will know everything and be happy.

So back to why it is so important to me to have my funeral playlist posted on my block. I told her that I have been working on my funeral playlist for quite some time because the last thing I want is for another person to choose which music is perfect. 

I am aware that’s if I were to put the songs on the computer or a USB drive or throw it on the God damn cloud there is no guarantee that the songs will be used, but having actual proof and the actual songs I want played posted for all to see then hopefully whoever is putting together the music is using the right songs. If for some reason things still weren’t done correctly I can leave knowing that it is out there exactly as it should be. 

We talked about my dilemma of if I should or should not explain the meaning symbolism and all that shit behind one song or should I just leave it as is and let those listening 2 interpret it themselves. I am still on the fence butt what I took away from my therapist was it should be left without an explanation. But again the one thing my therapist knows about me is how important it is for me to say everything that needs to be said before I go she also knows do to the strong emotions I have on anything symbolic she knows bats there is always something I am using as a time frame to end it. I thought about that for a moment and I believe my time frame will be when my funeral playlist has been completely recorded.

I know this should have been posted prior to posting two of the songs I wanted played it probably like most things didn’t make any sense. 

Watch Video For Lyrics

https://youtu.be/RncRYO9dbSQ

 Thousand Matches”

Lying on a mattress cause my friend’s crazy sister took my bed away,
Sleeping she looked like an actress,
In theory and in practice,
I said there’s got to be a better way,
She said,
You light a thousand matches,
When you finally set fire well you run away,
So why’d you go and do it,
When you knew that you would go and I would stay,

I hit the wall in frustration the conversation had been circling for days,
She said,
Don’t take it out on him,
For the wall has always been,
Supportive in the best of ways,
We were laughing and crying like mad men dying in the snow,
For just one second it was funny,
That she would have to stay and I would go,

I said love you know,
I love you so,
And when you love someone,
Well you’ve gotta let them know,
She said,
Nothings changed,
I love you the same,
But when you love someone sometimes,
You’ve gotta let them go,

She handed me a stone in the perfect shape of a heart,
She said,
I’m gonna take this home,
For I know you’ll only lose it somewhere after dark,
In some faceless hotel room,
Where you seem to lose everything you own,
She didn’t mean it how it sounded,
What she meant was she would stay and I would go,

And she said,
Love you know,
I love you so,
And when you love someone,
You’ve gotta let them know,
I said,
Nothings changed,
I love you the same,
But when you love someone sometimes,
You’ve gotta let them go,

Sometimes you tear it all apart,
To see the wood from the trees,
Sometimes you break your own heart,
To set yourself free,

I walked her to the station hesitation in our movement and our tone,
And words finally left after realising how uncomfortable they’d grown,
See what you want and what you need well they seldomly succeed to grow,
We reluctantly agreed when you love some one you’ve gotta let them go.

I still don’t know what’s better explaining why it’s on the list or let the music and lyrics say it for me